Ain't No Hood like Motherhood.

12 weeks + 1 day ago I was inducted into this wild adventure called Motherhood. Man, what an intense ride. You really don't understand what the struggle is until you're in the labor & delivery room, on that bed, with six sets of eyes on your hooha, and under one big spotlight. It's such an out-of-body experience that really can't be put into words; but if you're a woman who has given birth, you get it. You TOTALLY get it. You understand that when you finally leave that hospital, not only does the baby come home with you but also that rough roller coaster ride of emotions, feeling of wholeness and emptiness, and pain & discomfort. You almost no longer know who you are and definitely have no idea how to navigate this new self. Then you struggle with balancing being a new mom and remaining a wife/partner. All this and more, you totally get. You never realized how incredibly unnerving those first few weeks are until you become a vessel for a new human. You're lost. You feel empty.

...but then, you hold this new human in your arms, you stare at their beautiful, sleeping face with their balled-up hands, chubby little toes and you can't help but feel utterly, satisfyingly F U L L. You are content. Everything is perfect. This is your new purpose. You've entered motherhood ... and you don't ever want to leave. <3